Certain things or events, howsoever small or insignificant, get imprinted in the mind and heart for the whole life, as if these things had happened yesterday. I don’t know why, but most of you must have also experienced it.
Such events are not erased from the memory, while on the other hand, at times, it’s difficult to recollect things that we consider important.
When I was hardly 6 or 7, I had pushed a little girl younger to me, while playing. She fell down and started crying inconsolably. Instead of saying ‘sorry’ or consoling her, I also started crying. She looked startled for a moment, thought I was making fun of her and stopped crying. But I really felt her pain.
She lived the next door, and was like a family member. Whenever I see somebody crying, her little innocent face comes before my eyes.
The second incident happened when I was in the ninth standard. I had changed my school, but failed in maths in the first quarterly test. My mom looked at my report card, and while signing it, she said, ‘My son, always remember that your dad is no more.’
These words and her expression shook me from within. Thereafter I scored the highest marks in maths only, but that’s a different story altogether. Even now, during the moments of either success or failure, this incident is unfolded in flashback.
The next episode was of the time when my dad was alive. As a child, I used to see the Sawan Mela (seasonal fair) every year with my parents and siblings. On the last day of the fair, a song was being played again and again. At that time, I was not aware what is the meaning of that love song, but I simply used to hum, as I liked its tune.
Yesterday evening, this lilting song was being played on FM channel that carried me back to those days. It happens every time when I listen to this song, though totally unrelated, I invariably go down the memory lane recalling every minute detail of that day of the fair and subsequent days.
That year after a few days, on the day of Janmashtami festival, my dad expired, and we never went to that fair. As per our traditions, we don’t observe or celebrate Janmashtami even now. This may be the reason, I presume.