As a child, I was very much impressed with the speeches and personality of Shri Atal Bihari Vajpayee, who became the Prime Minister of the country after several decades of his political life. I wanted to become a leader like him, but it was not feasible in my childhood. It remained a dream.
Every parents have some dreams for their children. My parents also had a dream to make me a doctor. No, it was not thrust upon me. I had also a feeling that the best profession of the world was of a doctor, who could serve the humanity.
I, therefore, opted for the biology stream to pursue a medical career. I got selected in Combined Pre Medical Test (CPMT), but I had to forgo my seat. After the sudden demise of my father, the source of family income had almost dried up. Education loan scheme had not been launched then by banks. I decided to make myself competent enough to earn and stand on my own feet, as early as possible.
The next thing close to my heart was to become a lecturer. I got admitted to B.Sc course with honours in Geology. At that time, this subject had a lot of potentials. I thought after completing my master’s degree, I would either become a Geologist or at least get a stipend for pursuing research work in BHU itself.
It could also not happen. I abruptly left my study when I was preparing for final examination of M.Sc (Previous), and decided to join a bank in the clerical cadre, where the age of eligibilty was 18. I was in my first job at the age of 19. This job was not satisfying one for me, but it gave me liberty to apply for different kinds of jobs of my liking for better placement.
Very soon, I got selected as Inspector of Customs and Central Excise and posted as Preventive Officer in Shillong. It was a lucrative post in the eyes of public. I also liked the serene climate and people of Seven Sister States, as our area of operation was spread over the whole north east. I got an opportunity to visit all the exotic places of these beautiful states.
But something was amiss. This was not what I had dreamed of. Corruption was at the peak. The way the poor vendors used to be harassed during the raids by our team, while big offenders were operatimg right under our noses was not palatable to me. Very soon, I came to realise that this job was also not for me.
The salary income had however, boosted my morale. I had started applying for jobs left, right and centre. At every point of time, I had one or two offers of appointment in my hands. I resigned from the Customs’ job and proceeded to Delhi to join the Central Secretariat as an Assistant, a gazetted post.
The main job here was noting and drafting. It improved my writing skill, and I came into direct contact with senior IAS officers in the ranks of Under Secretary, Deputy Secretary and Joint Secretary. It certainly helped broaden my vision and the way of thinking.
Though there was nothing bad what I had experienced in the prevoius job, it was not of much interest to me. I wanted to do something good for the masses. Finally, I secured employment in a bank as Probationary Officer. I immediately resigned and joined the bank, that gave me a wider canvass to serve people.
When I was first posted as Branch Manager, I used to do more community service banking along with big ticket lucrative business. I continued this drive even as the Regional and Zonal Heads of the Bank by extensively visiting and guiding branches under my control. This job ultimately gave me what I wanted. I didn’t apply for any other job thereafter.
Though I could not achieve my ultimate goal to join Civil Services, I feel the officer’s job in a bank was no less My desire for higher studies, left mid-way, was also fulfilled here, when I got myself armed with qualifications like MA, MBA, LLB (Hons), CAIIB, Dip.TD, PGDHRM etc. by pursuing part-time and distance learning courses.
I had no mentor or guide in my entire life. I used to experiment myself. I had to wander here and there, getting sometimes frustrated too, but now I can proudly say that I’m a self-made person. Had I not joined different services at different places, I would not have been what I’m today.